Am I the only one who needs music to live? It seems I have a favorite band for every mood I’m in and not just your run of the mill moods like happy/sad either, but more obscure moods like silly, quixotic and circumspect, too. My life has a soundtrack. I’m not guaranteeing it’s a good soundtrack, but it’s there.
It’s there because like the people in my life, I also develop an emotional attachment to my music, which is probably a safer bet on my part. Unlike relationships, which, for the most part, are ephemeral, music is forever. Music can’t break your heart because it can’t go away. No matter what, music will always be there for you because even if your favorite band breaks up, their early work will be there waiting for you on mp3 or compact disc when you need it.
Unlike significant others and some friends, music won’t abandon you when times get tough. Music doesn’t spread false rumors or talk about you behind your back. Music doesn’t lie to you. Music has the same emotional capacity as a boyfriend only you can trust it…and if you listen hard enough, it talks back.
Like those stupid t-shirts at Hot Topic claim: “Music is my boyfriend.”
Well, music is actually BETTER than a boyfriend because it’s not going to lie to you, leave you or cheat on you and when you get sick of it you can just turn it off without any drama.
Besides my mom, music has been the only constant in my life for the past 20 years. It’s the only thing that has gotten me through tough times without passing judgement.
Here is a condensed version of my life’s soundtrack (with the full understanding that tomorrow I might find something I like better):
“Big Machine” by The Goo Goo Dolls – For getting over a break up
“All I Need” by Radiohead – For falling too hard too fast
“America” by Simon and Garfunkel – If I get married, this will be my song
“Misty Mountain Hop” by Led Zeppelin – For fun
“Me and Bobby Mcgee” by Janis Joplin – For freedom
“Woodstock” by Joni Mitchell – For spirit
“Jokerman” by Bob Dylan – For feeling calm
“6th Avenue Heartache” by The Wallflowers – For dumping someone
“A Certain Shade of Green” by Incubus – For understanding people who are complicated
“Black Balloon” by The Goo Goo Dolls – For getting through tough times
“Hallelujah” by Leonard Cohen – For dealing with death
“Tiny Dancer” by Elton John – For the next step
“Saying Goodbye” by Sugarcult – For a life change
“Showerhead” by Eve 6 – For a cheating lover
“Looking Back on Today” by The Ataris – For traveling
“Goodbye To You” by Michelle Branch – For ending an on again off again relationship
“Lola” by The Kinks – For meeting new people
“Forgetful Heart” by Bob Dylan – For getting your heart broken
“Dig” by Incubus – For a new relationship
“Fruit Machine” by The Ting Tings – For a girls’ night
“Brown Eyes” by Lady Gaga – For getting your heart broken
“Seasons of Wither” by Aerosmith – For the changing of seasons
“Amy Hit The Atmosphere” by The Counting Crows – For losing a best friend
“Dancing Nancies” by The Dave Matthews Band – For being a free spirit
“Fake Plastic Trees” by Radiohead – For someone who wasn’t what you expected
“Hot N Cold” by Katy Perry – For stupid boys
“Street Corner Symphony” by Rob Thomas – For a positive outlook on life
“You Oughta Know” by Alanis Morissette – For assholes
“One Love” by Bob Marley – For life
I’m sure there’s more but this is all I can come up with right now. Some of these songs are terrible. Some are rock classics. But either way they’ve played an important role in my life and for that I am grateful.